johnnyboy

rety8@hotmail.com — Sat, 31 Aug 2002 04:52:41 GMT

a dozen glowing moons
set in the teardrop
running down your face
and if only i could catch it
before it fell forever
if only i could hold you
before i fall forever
if only's. the language
of wish i couldve
maybe i didn't is
always familiar to me
as familiar as the weight of
your bittersweet lips
pouring out the songs of the world
all upon unsuspecting ears
as she whispers nothing in my ear

hello there

rety8@hotmail.com — Sat, 31 Aug 2002 04:37:41 GMT

hi guys gals hermaphrodites the lint on the bottom of my sandal...i hope everyone who reads this is doing well in whatever endeavours they are now pursuing..i know i never write in here but i feel now is an appropriate time. i just had one of the most difficult nites of my life grrr...stonybrook post its all the same shit right? anyway thats about the extent of that Linda i love you.well it can only get better from here i hope. sunday i move into post with a roomate i have not yet met and very unprepared for any living situations yup ill be back . im very excited about this coming year ive already recieved emails from the pioneer the school newspaper about our first meeting sept 5th i can't wait. dol looks promising and should be a great bonding experience..not that im into that kinda thing i wish everyone the best of luck for the upcoming year ,
John

schlock schlock schlock and dissension

rety8@hotmail.com — Tue, 11 Jun 2002 04:03:32 GMT

hello kiddies time for tri monthly addition to the most wonderful and highly exalted livejournal audience... its been a really great past couple of months aside from a few fuckups but what the hell... it was a really fun night in particular after running through cvs no not thatttt cvs with linnnda trying to find purpley things and i really wanted to write more here but im having a really distressing convo and im not sure why everything i do everyone feels i make a big deal out of b/c i really try not to do that i dont know everyone's joining the be mad at john convention so fine be mad at john he doesnt care ok b/c i think i work to the best of my ability ok and i make a comment that sounds like im a little proud of what i have accomplished than i think im am completely justified in doing so and that does not in any way take away from a group effort ok so i think that only when each individual member works to their potential then the group is a complete whole and that statement just for the record b/c i can feel the backlash now was not directed towards tonite i cant take it why why why what did i do??? goddamnit stop fighting with me.. ok fuck ittt i dont care but i do care so much i have never said its about me me me it has never been if everything i did was about me me me i dont think i would be a part of lifeteen much less dol... and i dont like it when people sign off in the middle of a "heated discussion" and i feel so fucking sick right now ok so whatever.. to anyone who i have unintentionally put down degraded scarred for life made fun of made a side comment about took credit for something that was not my doing or anything wrong that anyone can possibly concieve of i am truly honestly and completely sorry..i just think that issues should be discussed in a group forum so that stupid things that are said can be rectified before they have a chance to multiply and grow more ugly... and for anyone out there who has a justifiable reason to be upset at me please im begging you come to me and if you decide you still hate me after we've taked through whatever it is then thats fine you'll have every right to be at that time
For all anonymous replies to this fuck you in advance goodnight

god school sucks

rety8@hotmail.com — Thu, 30 May 2002 18:24:08 GMT

hello hello its been a while, just dreamed of being in your arms and looking at your smile... well not really so i got two silly awards last night one for eagles cry something or other and another for creative writing not that i am ever creative:) i kinda have a really bad headachetoday but i suppose itll pass it has to right! tomorrows our trip that has now officially been planned for for the past 8 months well i hope it all runs smoothly. shaps got a livejournal yay and other than that not alot is new.. oh yea the john cuttito lit. magazine is out on the shelves buy a copy todaywell i have 3 minutes till the bell rings so i fear i must leave parting is such sweet sorrow.
departing comment: legs is the word of the day lets go home and spread the word
actual word of the day: nipple

thomas

rety8@hotmail.com — Sat, 30 Mar 2002 05:15:30 GMT

humble and helpless
learning to pray
praying for visions
to show me the way
show me the way to forgive you
allow me to let it go
allow me to be forgiving
show me the way to let go
show me the way to forgive you
allow me to let it go
allow me to be forgiving
show me the way to let go
you made me yours
you made me
you pave the way
just praying for you to show me
where i'm to begin

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rety8@hotmail.com — Thu, 21 Mar 2002 01:11:42 GMT

do you have a toaster oven?
do you have a bathrobe?
could we borrow your house as a hotel for a night?

rety8@hotmail.com — Thu, 21 Mar 2002 01:10:29 GMT

grrrrrr

bored baaahhh

rety8@hotmail.com — Mon, 18 Mar 2002 03:18:17 GMT

emotions
like rivers
f l o w i n g
skipping a beat now and then
dancing to the beat of a different drum
sadness like acid
burns and hurts
joy like love
heals all wounds
scars pass with time
time leaves memories
to never forget
a blessing
to always be yourself
priceless
to have you in my life
is to be whole
to love
is divine
to be loved back
a feeling undescribed.

Rivers like time
love like
yours and mine
sunsets watched together
stars gazed upon
while i was holding you
sunrises
shared
means more days together
watching the fog rise
so i can see you once more
trips to the beach
to watch the tides
flow
as smoothly as your lips caress mine

stars crash
into
stardust
leaving me with
star lust
for your eyes
for your lips
for the feel of your
fingertips
stardust
and just us
to see it shower down
in a river
of gold
to share
to hold
infinite chasms between
the crashing stars
could not contain
this love
or stop my kiss
from reaching
sweet delicate lips
that are yours

Colors
and scents
like memories
stolen
lost
misplaced
purposely
boredom sets in
can't forget those
memories
like the red of your lips
and the pink of your skin
scents like the smell of your hair
or your perfume lingering
like the feel of your fingers
against my cheek holding me close
to kiss lips to lips
body to body
soul to soul
you to me
what needy things emotions are
like how i long for you
at the strangest of times
or maybe just constantly

Sunrise
over the mountain river
feeing into a sunlit lake
turning all into a pool of gold
their are those who dread the sunrise
knowing all too well that the coming day
brings no relief from the routine of life
their are those who would worship the sunrise
for it meant that their gods were not angry
and that life would continue to be good
for me sunrise is a way to break
away from the darkness
to start anew
and for every sunrise i see
i wish for one more day with you
and for every sunset i witness
i pray for another night where
you will be in my arms and
i will not face the darkness
alone

Can't let go
of today
tomorrow
yesterday
the past
my past
our past
this love
your heart
our love
can't let go
of you
your body
your skin
under my fingertips
illusion
in your eyes
my eyes
first sin
new skin
one love
i need
only yours
today
tomorrow
everyday

tattered
photograph
curled at the edges
yellowed
forgotten
hidden away
deep
unknown
unrevealed
unwanted
of you and me
long ago
the clock mocks us
and the calendar laughs
the days float by
as the years collect the dust
as this forgotten relationship grew old
like the yellowed tattered photograph
under the bed

Sickness

floating
but only in my head
dying
but still breathing instead
living
but only for your kiss
being
but longing for your touch
aching
for the silk of your skin
feverish
hallucinating of a tomorrow
that will never come
and a past that never was

s-u-r-v-e- y? cuz im bored

rety8@hotmail.com — Fri, 15 Mar 2002 23:13:01 GMT

cats or dogs?

rain or snow?

sun or rain?

flourescent lighting or light bulbs?

is that a squirrel humping a bush?

what time is it?

who do you spend the most time with?

do you like your parents?

do u ever spend nights at home just because? (not counting being grounded)

Have you ever been kissed?

Do you beleive in fairy tales?

the book of revelations says the world is soon going to end... do you believe that?

do you believe in love at first sight?

do you believe in hate at first sight?

even if you hate somebody do you still go out of your way to be nice to them?

would you rather stand on hot burning coals or sleep on a bed of nails?

whats your favorite flavor ice cream?

have you ever performed the smell test on a pair of sox to see if u could wear them again?

do u have any piercings?

do you want any piercings?

wheres the best place to spend the night with someone special?

lubed or not lubed?

why are guys so much more open about masturbation?

what scares you most?

what makes you the happiest?

do you like rainbows?

do you like cows?

have you ever been driving down a road and seen roadkill and wanted to pick it up and maybe salvage some for dinner?

college...why?

do you believe in fate or destiny?

do you believe in heaven?

hell?

who's your best friend?

do you sit online all day and wait for junk mail to be sent to oyu just so u can delete it?(ok so maybe i am the only one with no life?)

are you an on top kinda person or a bottom?

whats the first thing that attracts you to a member of the opposite sex?

and then what?

would you rather be deaf, blind, or mute?

whats your view on anal sex?

is life like a box of chocolates or are we all just nuts?

describe to me a day in your life..

if you were a squirrel would you hump a bush in public?

do you have any std's?

do you like needles?

are you a dendrophiliac?

are you a necrophiliac?

are you a hemophiliac?

do you have agoraphobia?

aviophobia?
Ablutophobia- Fear of washing or bathing.
Acarophobia- Fear of itching or of the insects that cause itching.
Acerophobia- Fear of sourness.
Achluophobia- Fear of darkness.
Acousticophobia- Fear of noise.
Acrophobia- Fear of heights.
Aerophobia- Fear of drafts, air swallowing, or airbourne noxious substances.
Aeroacrophobia- Fear of open high places.
Aeronausiphobia- Fear of vomiting secondary to airsickness.
Agateophobia- Fear of insanity.
Agliophobia- Fear of pain.
Agoraphobia- Fear of open spaces or of being in crowded, public places like markets. Fear of leaving a safe place.
Agraphobia- Fear of sexual abuse.
Agrizoophobia- Fear of wild animals.
Agyrophobia- Fear of streets or crossing the street.
Aichmophobia- Fear of needles or pointed objects.
Ailurophobia- Fear of cats.
Albuminurophobia- Fear of kidney disease.
Alektorophobia- Fear of chickens.
Algophobia- Fear of pain.
Alliumphobia- Fear of garlic.
Allodoxaphobia- Fear of opinions.
Altophobia- Fear of heights.
Amathophobia- Fear of dust.
Amaxophobia- Fear of riding in a car.
Ambulophobia- Fear of walking.
Amnesiphobia- Fear of amnesia.
Amychophobia- Fear of scratches or being scratched.
Anablephobia- Fear of looking up.
Ancraophobia or Anemophobia- Fear of wind.
Androphobia- Fear of men.
Anemophobia- Fear of air drafts or wind.
Anginophobia- Fear of angina, choking or narrowness.
Anglophobia- Fear of England, English culture, etc.
Angrophobia - Fear of anger or of becoming angry.
Ankylophobia- Fear of immobility of a joint.
Anthrophobia or Anthophobia- Fear of flowers.
Anthropophobia- Fear of people or society.
Antlophobia- Fear of floods.
Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.
Apeirophobia- Fear of infinity.
Aphenphosmphobia- Fear of being touched. (Haphephobia)
Apiphobia- Fear of bees.
Apotemnophobia- Fear of persons with amputations.
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders.
Arithmophobia- Fear of numbers.
Arrhenphobia- Fear of men.
Arsonphobia- Fear of fire.
Asthenophobia- Fear of fainting or weakness.
Astraphobia or Astrapophobia- Fear of thunder and lightning.
Astrophobia- Fear of stars and celestial space.
Asymmetriphobia- Fear of asymmetrical things.
Ataxiophobia- Fear of ataxia (muscular incoordination)
Ataxophobia- Fear of disorder or untidiness.
Atelophobia- Fear of imperfection.
Atephobia- Fear of ruin or ruins.
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting.
Atomosophobia - Fear of atomic explosions.
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure.
Aulophobia- Fear of flutes.
Aurophobia- Fear of gold.
Auroraphobia- Fear of Northern lights.
Autodysomophobia- Fear of one that has a vile odor.
Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.
Automysophobia- Fear of being dirty.
Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself.
Aviophobia or Aviatophobia- Fear of flying.
Bacillophobia- Fear of microbes.
Bacteriophobia- Fear of bacteria.
Ballistophobia- Fear of missiles or bullets.
Bolshephobia- Fear of Bolsheviks.
Barophobia- Fear of gravity.
Basophobia or Basiphobia- Inability to stand. Fear of walking or falling.
Bathmophobia- Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
Bathophobia- Fear of depth.
Batophobia- Fear of heights or being close to high buildings.
Batrachophobia- Fear of amphibians, such as frogs, newts, salamanders, etc.
Belonephobia- Fear of pins and needles. (Aichmophobia)
Bibliophobia- Fear of books.
Blennophobia- Fear of slime.
Bogyphobia- Fear of bogies or the bogeyman.
Botanophobia- Fear of plants.
Bromidrosiphobia or Bromidrophobia- Fear of body smells.
Brontophobia- Fear of thunder and lightning.
Bufonophobia- Fear of toads.

C-

Cacophobia- Fear of ugliness.
Cainophobia or Cainotophobia- Fear of newness, novelty.
Caligynephobia- Fear of beautiful women.
Cancerophobia- Fear of cancer.
Carcinophobia- Fear of cancer.
Cardiophobia- Fear of the heart.
Carnophobia- Fear of meat.
Catagelophobia- Fear of being ridiculed.
Catapedaphobia- Fear of jumping from high and low places.
Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting.
Catoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors.
Cenophobia or Centophobia- Fear of new things or ideas.
Ceraunophobia- Fear of thunder.
Chaetophobia- Fear of hair.
Cheimaphobia or Cheimatophobia- Fear of cold.
Chemophobia- Fear of chemicals or working with chemicals.
Cherophobia- Fear of gaiety.
Chionophobia- Fear of snow.
Chiraptophobia- Fear of being touched.
Chirophobia- Fear of hands.
Cholerophobia- Fear of anger or the fear of cholera.
Chorophobia- Fear of dancing.
Chrometophobia or Chrematophobia- Fear of money.
Chromophobia or Chromatophobia- Fear of colors.
Chronophobia- Fear of time.
Chronomentrophobia- Fear of clocks.
Cibophobia or Sitophobia or Sitiophobia- Fear of food.
Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces.
Cleithrophobia or Cleisiophobia- Fear of being locked in an enclosed place.
Cleptophobia- Fear of stealing.
Climacophobia- Fear of stairs, climbing or of falling downstairs.
Clinophobia- Fear of going to bed.
Clithrophobia or Cleithrophobia- Fear of being enclosed.
Cnidophobia- Fear of stings.
Cometophobia- Fear of comets.
Coimetrophobia- Fear of cemeteries.
Coitophobia- Fear of coitus.
Contreltophobia- Fear of sexual abuse.
Coprastasophobia- Fear of constipation.
Coprophobia- Fear of feces.
Coulrophobia- Fear of clowns.
Counterphobia- The preference by a phobic for fearful situations.
Cremnophobia- Fear of precipices.
Cryophobia- Fear of extreme cold, ice or frost.
Crystallophobia- Fear of crystals or glass.
Cyberphobia- Fear of computers or working on a computer.
Cyclophobia- Fear of bicycles.
Cymophobia- Fear of waves or wave like motions.
Cynophobia- Fear of dogs or rabies.
Cypridophobia, Cypriphobia, Cyprianophobia, or Cyprinophobia - Fear of prostitutes or venereal disease.

D-

Decidophobia- Fear of making decisions.
Defecaloesiophobia- Fear of painful bowels movements.
Deipnophobia- Fear of dining or dinner conversations.
Dementophobia- Fear of insanity.
Demonophobia or Daemonophobia- Fear of demons.
Demophobia- Fear of crowds. (Agoraphobia)
Dendrophobia- Fear of trees.
Dentophobia- Fear of dentists.
Dermatophobia- Fear of skin lesions.
Dermatosiophobia or Dermatophobia or Dermatopathophobia- Fear of skin disease.
Dextrophobia- Fear of objects at the right side of the body.
Diabetophobia- Fear of diabetes.
Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of going to school.
Dikephobia- Fear of justice.
Dinophobia- Fear of dizziness or whirlpools.
Diplophobia- Fear of double vision.
Dipsophobia- Fear of drinking.
Dishabiliophobia- Fear of undressing in front of someone.
Domatophobia or Oikophobia- Fear of houses or being in a house.
Doraphobia- Fear of fur or skins of animals.
Doxophobia- Fear of expressing opinions or of receiving praise.
Dromophobia- Fear of crossing streets.
Dutchphobia- Fear of the Dutch.
Dysmorphophobia- Fear of deformity.
Dystychiphobia- Fear of accidents.

E-

Ecclesiophobia- Fear of church.
Ecophobia- Fear of home.
Eicophobia or Oikophobia- Fear of home surroundings.
Eisoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors or of seeing oneself in a mirror.
Electrophobia- Fear of electricity.
Eleutherophobia- Fear of freedom.
Elurophobia- Fear of cats. (Ailurophobia)
Emetophobia- Fear of vomiting.
Enetophobia- Fear of pins.
Enochlophobia- Fear of crowds.
Enosiophobia or Enissophobia- Fear of having committed an unpardonable sin or of criticism.
Entomophobia- Fear of insects.
Eosophobia- Fear of dawn or daylight.
Ephebiphobia- Fear of teenagers.
Epistaxiophobia- Fear of nosebleeds.
Epistemophobia- Fear of knowledge.
Equinophobia- Fear of horses.
Eremophobia- Fear of being oneself or of lonliness.
Ereuthrophobia- Fear of blushing.
Ergasiophobia- 1) Fear of work or functioning. 2) Surgeon's fear of operating.
Ergophobia- Fear of work.
Erotophobia- Fear of sexual love or sexual questions.
Euphobia- Fear of hearing good news.
Eurotophobia- Fear of female genitalia.
Erythrophobia, Erytophobia or Ereuthophobia- 1) Fear of redlights. 2) Blushing. 3) Red.

F-

Febriphobia, Fibriphobia or Fibriophobia- Fear of fever.
Felinophobia- Fear of cats. (Ailurophobia, Elurophobia, Galeophobia, Gatophobia)
Francophobia- Fear of France, French culture. (Gallophobia, Galiophobia)
Frigophobia- Fear of cold, cold things.

G-
Galeophobia or Gatophobia- Fear of cats.
Gallophobia or Galiophobia- Fear France, French culture. (Francophobia)
Gamophobia- Fear of marriage.
Geliophobia- Fear of laughter.
Geniophobia- Fear of chins.
Genophobia- Fear of sex.
Genuphobia- Fear of knees.
Gephyrophobia, Gephydrophobia, or Gephysrophobia- Fear of crossing bridges.
Germanophobia- Fear of Germany, German culture, etc.
Gerascophobia- Fear of growing old.
Gerontophobia- Fear of old people or of growing old.
Geumaphobia or Geumophobia- Fear of taste.
Glossophobia- Fear of speaking in public or of trying to speak.
Gnosiophobia- Fear of knowledge.
Graphophobia- Fear of writing or handwriting.
Gymnophobia- Fear of nudity.
Gynephobia or Gynophobia- Fear of women.

H-

Hadephobia- Fear of hell.
Hagiophobia- Fear of saints or holy things.
Hamartophobia- Fear of sinning.
Haphephobia or Haptephobia- Fear of being touched.
Harpaxophobia- Fear of being robbed.
Hedonophobia- Fear of feeling pleasure.
Heliophobia- Fear of the sun.
Hellenologophobia- Fear of Greek terms or complex scientific terminology.
Helminthophobia- Fear of being infested with worms.
Hemophobia or Hemaphobia or Hematophobia- Fear of blood.
Heresyphobia or Hereiophobia- Fear of challenges to official doctrine or of radical deviation.
Herpetophobia- Fear of reptiles or creepy, crawly things.
Heterophobia- Fear of the opposite sex. (Sexophobia)
Hierophobia- Fear of priests or sacred things.
Hippophobia- Fear of horses.
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words.
Hobophobia- Fear of bums or beggars.
Hodophobia- Fear of road travel.
Hormephobia- Fear of shock.
Homichlophobia- Fear of fog.
Homilophobia- Fear of sermons.
Hominophobia- Fear of men.
Homophobia- Fear of sameness, monotony or of homosexuality or of becoming homosexual.
Hoplophobia- Fear of firearms.
Hydrargyophobia- Fear of mercurial medicines.
Hydrophobia- Fear of water or of rabies.
Hydrophobophobia- Fear of rabies.
Hyelophobia or Hyalophobia- Fear of glass.
Hygrophobia- Fear of liquids, dampness, or moisture.
Hylephobia- Fear of materialism OR the fear of epilepsy.
Hylophobia- Fear of forests.
Hypengyophobia or Hypegiaphobia- Fear of responsibility.
Hypnophobia- Fear of sleep or of being hypnotized.
Hypsiphobia- Fear of height.

I-

Iatrophobia- Fear of going to the doctor or of doctors.
Ichthyophobia- Fear of fish.
Ideophobia- Fear of ideas.
Illyngophobia- Fear of vertigo or feeling dizzy when looking down.
Iophobia- Fear of poison.
Insectophobia - Fear of insects.
Isolophobia- Fear of solitude, being alone.
Isopterophobia- Fear of termites, insects that eat wood.
Ithyphallophobia- Fear of seeing, thinking about or having an erect penis.

J-

Japanophobia- Fear of Japanese.
Judeophobia- Fear of Jews.

K-

Kainolophobia- Fear of novelty.
Kainophobia- Fear of anything new, novelty.
Kakorrhaphiophobia- Fear of failure or defeat.
Katagelophobia- Fear of ridicule.
Kathisophobia- Fear of sitting down.
Kenophobia- Fear of voids or empty spaces.
Keraunophobia- Fear of thunder and lightning.
Kinetophobia or Kinesophobia- Fear of movement or motion.
Kleptophobia- Fear of stealing.
Koinoniphobia- Fear of rooms.
Kolpophobia- Fear of genitals, particularly female.
Kopophobia- Fear of fatigue.
Koniophobia- Fear of dust. (Amathophobia)
Kosmikophobia- Fear of cosmic phenomenon.
Kymophobia- Fear of waves.
Kynophobia- Fear of rabies.
Kyphophobia- Fear of stooping.

L-

Lachanophobia- Fear of vegetables.
Laliophobia or Lalophobia- Fear of speaking.
Leprophobia or Lepraphobia- Fear of leprosy.
Leukophobia- Fear of the color white.
Levophobia- Fear of things to the left side of the body.
Ligyrophobia- Fear of loud noises.
Lilapsophobia- Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
Limnophobia- Fear of lakes.
Linonophobia- Fear of string.
Liticaphobia- Fear of lawsuits.
Lockiophobia- Fear of childbirth.
Logizomechanophobia- Fear of computers.
Logophobia- Fear of words.
Luiphobia- Fear of lues, syphillis.
Lutraphobia- Fear of otters.
Lygophobia- Fear of darkness.
Lyssophobia- Fear of rabies or of becoming mad.

M-

Macrophobia- Fear of long waits.
Mageirocophobia- Fear of cooking.
Maieusiophobia- Fear of childbirth.
Malaxophobia- Fear of love play. (Sarmassophobia)
Maniaphobia- Fear of insanity.
Mastigophobia- Fear of punishment.
Mechanophobia- Fear of machines.
Medomalacuphobia- Fear of losing an erection.
Medorthophobia- Fear of an erect penis.
Megalophobia- Fear of large things.
Melissophobia- Fear of bees.
Melanophobia- Fear of the color black.
Melophobia- Fear or hatred of music.
Meningitophobia- Fear of brain disease.
Menophobia- Fear of menstruation.
Merinthophobia- Fear of being bound or tied up.
Metallophobia- Fear of metal.
Metathesiophobia- Fear of changes.
Meteorophobia- Fear of meteors.
Methyphobia- Fear of alcohol.
Metrophobia- Fear or hatred of poetry.
Microbiophobia- Fear of microbes. (Bacillophobia)
Microphobia- Fear of small things.
Misophobia- Fear of being contaminated with dirt of germs.
Mnemophobia- Fear of memories.
Molysmophobia or Molysomophobia- Fear of dirt or contamination.
Monophobia- Fear of solitude or being alone.
Monopathophobia- Fear of definite disease.
Motorphobia- Fear of automobiles.
Mottephobia- Fear of moths.
Musophobia or Murophobia- Fear of mice.
Mycophobia- Fear or aversion to mushrooms.
Mycrophobia- Fear of small things.
Myctophobia- Fear of darkness.
Myrmecophobia- Fear of ants.
Mysophobia- Fear of germs or contamination or dirt.
Mythophobia- Fear of myths or stories or false statements.
Myxophobia- Fear of slime. (Blennophobia)

N-
Nebulaphobia- Fear of fog. (Homichlophobia)
Necrophobia- Fear of death or dead things.
Nelophobia- Fear of glass.
Neopharmaphobia- Fear of new drugs.
Neophobia- Fear of anything new.
Nephophobia- Fear of clouds.
Noctiphobia- Fear of the night.
Nomatophobia- Fear of names.
Nosocomephobia- Fear of hospitals.
Nosophobia or Nosemaphobia- Fear of becoming ill.
Nostophobia- Fear of returning home.
Novercaphobia- Fear of your step-mother.
Nucleomituphobia- Fear of nuclear weapons.
Nudophobia- Fear of nudity.
Numerophobia- Fear of numbers.
Nyctohylophobia- Fear of dark wooded areas, of forests at night
Nyctophobia- Fear of the dark or of night.

O-

Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight.(Pocrescophobia)
Ochlophobia- Fear of crowds or mobs.
Ochophobia- Fear of vehicles.
Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
Odontophobia- Fear of teeth or dental surgery.
Odynophobia or Odynephobia- Fear of pain. (Algophobia)
Oenophobia- Fear of wines.
Oikophobia- Fear of home surroundings, house.
Olfactophobia- Fear of smells.
Ombrophobia- Fear of rain or of being rained on.
Ommetaphobia or Ommatophobia- Fear of eyes.
Oneirophobia- Fear of dreams.
Oneirogmophobia- Fear of wet dreams.
Onomatophobia- Fear of hearing a certain word or of names.
Ophidiophobia- Fear of snakes. (Snakephobia)
Ophthalmophobia- Fear of being stared at.
Opiophobia- Fear medical doctors experience of prescribing needed pain medications for patients.
Optophobia- Fear of opening one's eyes.
Ornithophobia- Fear of birds.
Orthophobia- Fear of property.
Osmophobia or Osphresiophobia- Fear of smells or odors.
Ostraconophobia- Fear of shellfish.
Ouranophobia- Fear of heaven.

P-

Pagophobia- Fear of ice or frost.
Panthophobia- Fear of suffering and disease.
Panophobia or Pantophobia- Fear of everything.
Papaphobia- Fear of the Pope.
Papyrophobia- Fear of paper.
Paralipophobia- Fear of neglecting duty or responsibility.
Paraphobia- Fear of sexual perversion.
Parasitophobia- Fear of parasites.
Paraskavedekatriaphobia- Fear of Friday the 13th.
Parthenophobia- Fear of virgins or young girls.
Pathophobia- Fear of disease.
Patroiophobia- Fear of heredity.
Parturiphobia- Fear of childbirth.
Peccatophobia- Fear of sinning. (imaginary crime)
Pediculophobia- Fear of lice.
Pediophobia- Fear of dolls.
Pedophobia- Fear of children.
Peladophobia- Fear of bald people.
Pellagrophobia- Fear of pellagra.
Peniaphobia- Fear of poverty.
Pentheraphobia- Fear of mother-in-law. (Novercaphobia)
Phagophobia- Fear of swallowing or of eating or of being eaten.
Phalacrophobia- Fear of becoming bald.
Phallophobia- Fear of a penis, esp erect.
Pharmacophobia- Fear of taking medicine.
Phasmophobia- Fear of ghosts.
Phengophobia- Fear of daylight or sunshine.
Philemaphobia or Philematophobia- Fear of kissing.
Philophobia- Fear of falling in love or being in love.
Philosophobia- Fear of philosophy.
Phobophobia- Fear of phobias.
Photoaugliaphobia- Fear of glaring lights.
Photophobia- Fear of light.
Phonophobia- Fear of noises or voices or one's own voice; of telephones.
Phronemophobia- Fear of thinking.
Phthiriophobia- Fear of lice. (Pediculophobia)
Phthisiophobia- Fear of tuberculosis.
Placophobia- Fear of tombstones.
Plutophobia- Fear of wealth.
Pluviophobia- Fear of rain or of being rained on.
Pneumatiphobia- Fear of spirits.
Pnigophobia or Pnigerophobia- Fear of choking of being smothered.
Pocrescophobia- Fear of gaining weight. (Obesophobia)
Pogonophobia- Fear of beards.
Poliosophobia- Fear of contracting poliomyelitis.
Politicophobia- Fear or abnormal dislike of politicians.
Polyphobia- Fear of many things.
Poinephobia- Fear of punishment.
Ponophobia- Fear of overworking or of pain.
Porphyrophobia- Fear of the color purple.
Potamophobia- Fear of rivers or running water.
Potophobia- Fear of alcohol.
Pharmacophobia- Fear of drugs.
Proctophobia- Fear of rectum.
Prosophobia- Fear of progress.
Psellismophobia- Fear of stuttering.
Psychophobia- Fear of mind.
Psychrophobia- Fear of cold.
Pteromerhanophobia- Fear of flying.
Pteronophobia- Fear of being tickled by feathers.
Pupaphobia - fear of puppets.
Pyrexiophobia- Fear of Fever.
Pyrophobia- Fear of fire.

R-

Radiophobia- Fear of radiation, x-rays.
Ranidaphobia- Fear of frogs.
Rectophobia- Fear of rectum or rectal diseases.
Rhabdophobia- Fear of being severely punished or beaten by a rod, or of being severely criticized. Also fear of magic.(wand)
Rhypophobia- Fear of defecation.
Rhytiphobia- Fear of getting wrinkles.
Rupophobia- Fear of dirt.
Russophobia- Fear of Russians.

S-

Samhainophobia: Fear of Halloween.
Sarmassophobia- Fear of love play. (Malaxophobia)
Satanophobia- Fear of Satan.
Scabiophobia- Fear of scabies.
Scatophobia- Fear of fecal matter.
Scelerophibia- Fear of bad men, burglars.
Sciophobia Sciaphobia- Fear of shadows.
Scoleciphobia- Fear of worms.
Scolionophobia- Fear of school.
Scopophobia or Scoptophobia- Fear of being seen or stared at.
Scotomaphobia- Fear of blindness in visual field.
Scotophobia- Fear of darkness. (Achluophobia)
Scriptophobia- Fear of writing in public.
Selachophobia- Fear of sharks.
Selaphobia- Fear of light flashes.
Selenophobia- Fear of the moon.
Seplophobia- Fear of decaying matter.
Sesquipedalophobia- Fear of long words.
Sexophobia- Fear of the opposite sex. (Heterophobia)
Siderodromophobia- Fear of trains, railroads or train travel.
Siderophobia- Fear of stars.
Sinistrophobia- Fear of things to the left, left-handed.
Sinophobia- Fear of Chinese, Chinese culture.
Sitophobia or Sitiophobia- Fear of food or eating. (Cibophobia)
Snakephobia- Fear of snakes. (Ophidiophobia)
Soceraphobia- Fear of parents-in-law.
Social Phobia- Fear of being evaluated negatively in social situations.
Sociophobia- Fear of society or people in general.
Somniphobia- Fear of sleep.
Sophophobia- Fear of learning.
Soteriophobia - Fear of dependence on others.
Spacephobia- Fear of outer space.
Spectrophobia- Fear of specters or ghosts.
Spermatophobia or Spermophobia- Fear of germs.
Spheksophobia- Fear of wasps.
Stasibasiphobia or Stasiphobia- Fear of standing or walking. (Ambulophobia)
Staurophobia- Fear of crosses or the crucifix.
Stenophobia- Fear of narrow things or places.
Stygiophobia or Stigiophobia- Fear of hell.
Suriphobia- Fear of mice.
Symbolophobia- Fear of symbolism.
Symmetrophobia- Fear of symmetry.
Syngenesophobia- Fear of relatives.
Syphilophobia- Fear of syphilis.

T-

Tachophobia- Fear of speed.
Taeniophobia or Teniophobia- Fear of tapeworms.
Taphephobia Taphophobia- Fear of being buried alive or of cemeteries.
Tapinophobia- Fear of being contagious.
Taurophobia- Fear of bulls.
Technophobia- Fear of technology.
Teleophobia- 1) Fear of definite plans. 2) Religious ceremony.
Telephonophobia- Fear of telephones.
Teratophobia- Fear of bearing a deformed child or fear of monsters or deformed people.
Testophobia- Fear of taking tests.
Tetanophobia- Fear of lockjaw, tetanus.
Teutophobia- Fear of German or German things.
Textophobia- Fear of certain fabrics.
Thaasophobia- Fear of sitting.
Thalassophobia- Fear of the sea.
Thanatophobia or Thantophobia- Fear of death or dying.
Theatrophobia- Fear of theatres.
Theologicophobia- Fear of theology.
Theophobia- Fear of gods or religion.
Thermophobia- Fear of heat.
Tocophobia- Fear of pregnancy or childbirth.
Tomophobia- Fear of surgical operations.
Tonitrophobia- Fear of thunder.
Topophobia- Fear of certain places or situations, such as stage fright.
Toxiphobia or Toxophobia or Toxicophobia- Fear of poison or of being accidently poisoned.
Traumatophobia- Fear of injury.
Tremophobia- Fear of trembling.
Trichinophobia- Fear of trichinosis.
Trichopathophobia or Trichophobia or Hypertrichophobia- Fear of hair. (Chaetophobia)
Triskaidekaphobia- Fear of the number 13.
Tropophobia- Fear of moving or making changes.
Trypanophobia- Fear of injections.
Tuberculophobia- Fear of tuberculosis.
Tyrannophobia- Fear of tyrants.

U-

Uranophobia- Fear of heaven.
Urophobia- Fear of urine or urinating.

V-

Vaccinophobia- Fear of vaccination.
Venustraphobia- Fear of beautiful women.
Verbophobia- Fear of words.
Verminophobia- Fear of germs.
Vestiphobia- Fear of clothing.
Virginitiphobia- Fear of rape.
Vitricophobia- Fear of step-father.

W-

Walloonphobia- Fear of the Walloons.
Wiccaphobia: Fear of witches and witchcraft.

Xanthophobia- Fear of the color yellow or the word yellow.
Xenoglossophobia- Fear of foreign languages.
Xenophobia- Fear of strangers or foreigners.
Xerophobia- Fear of dryness.
Xylophobia- 1) Fear of wooden objects. 2) Forests.
Xyrophobia-Fear of razors.

Y-
Z-
Zelophobia- Fear of jealousy.
Zeusophobia- Fear of God or gods.
Zemmiphobia- Fear of the great mole rat.
Zoophobia- Fear of animals.

survey ba ba bummmm

rety8@hotmail.com — Tue, 12 Mar 2002 01:31:12 GMT

Are you wearing shoes right now?

Does it really matter?

why are you reading this?

have you ever eaten a banana?

does anyone care?

are you really bored right now?

ok... think of all of your really close friends.... if you were in a plane crash with all of them and u were stranded on a desert island which of them would you eat?

do you have a g/f?

do you have a b/f?

Are you really bored right now?

who's your favorite author?

whats your favorite movie?

whats your favorite position for sex?

whats your favorite ice cream flavor?

whats your eye color?

whats the eye color you find most appealing?

Where in the world do you most wish u were right now?

are you wearing socks?

why?

do you have a pet?

do you want a pet?

do you want to pet me instead?

chocolate or vanilla?

inside or outside?

contacts or glasses?

long hair or short hair?

whats your favorite music?

who's your favorite person?

where's your favorite place to be?

how often do you brush your hair?

teeth?

how often do you look in the mirror?

do you drive?

do you have a car?

What are you doing right now?

why are you doing that?!?!?!
thats gross man

would you rather...

watch tv or read a book?

sleep or paint your nails?

go to a movie or go bowling?

pet a goldfish or feed a snake?

to live or not to live?

is the glass full or completely smashed into little pieces?

are you about ready to pull all of your hair out b/c i am

which freakin muppet are you?????????????????

rety8@hotmail.com — Mon, 11 Mar 2002 23:34:26 GMT

	You are Gonzo! You're a bit loopy, and many people have trouble figuring out exactly what you're supposed to be. You take pride in your eccentricity and originality.
*Take the What Muppet Are You?* Quiz!**

argh

rety8@hotmail.com — Mon, 11 Mar 2002 23:25:21 GMT

dude its goin on day 3 and im going out of my fucking mind.... Lindaaaa i misss you.. shappy i dont think you read this but you werent in school today damnit.. yea so its been 3 days now and im so bored...my hand is getting kinda tired heh lindaaaaaaa i love you babe..... danielle we cant have a thursday gathering for 2 weeks
grrrrrrrrr im so annoyed i think im gonna be spending a whole buncha time afterschool for some reason i need to be out of here im freaking watching a jackie chan cartoon fuck fuck fuck i hate this....anonymous people are whores
prison walls
gray and bleak
prison walls
4 more days and a week
freaking insane
maybe something will fly into my house
...like maybe a plane!!

So which letter of the alphabet matches YOUR personality, huh?

99 red ballons hangin on my wall 99 red balloons and im gonna pop em all ouch my ear hurts im going tomorrow to the doctor its about damn time

i am a freaking hungry duck damnnnnnittt feeed me seymour feeeed me

Find your inner rubber ducky.
yeaaaap anyway im am really bored and i finished writing this like 2 hours ago but i never pressed the update journal button
so its all good... i never thought i'd miss going to work
sux sux sux nicoles a freak......hmmmm linda is a goddess
i am a lowly bored peasant man

rety8@hotmail.com — Sat, 09 Mar 2002 04:21:30 GMT

Which tarot card are you?

aghhh busted.. hmm spent an entire day with linda well exhausting morning anyway went to werk at 2:30 does it matter that ronda thought i went to werk at 8 i think not fuck it oooo dave hasto have a talk with me tomorrow wen he gets home from work yea cuz ill really be around heh watever....played pool tonight after driving around 4 four hours with shaps' cousin its all good.. got hustled for a whole two dollars wow we really suck at pool all in all it was a great day.... omg is that a squirrel humping a bush? yes..yes it is. Morris!!! Mitsubishi!! if anyone wants to see queen of the damned make sure you dont read the book first uh yea blonde hair blue eyes wateve... also it helps if you dont try to place the accents b/c hell they made em up. sigh..... 11 hours of werk tomorrow b/c once i get my car on the road im never ever coming home

heyyyyy

rety8@hotmail.com — Mon, 12 Nov 2001 03:36:51 GMT

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well hello again for everyone who has given up on me actually writing in this thing... im sitting here with linda(well actually shes standing and bitching that i never write in this thing) but i had a great day despite psychocab drivers and off key beggars i mean come on if yer gonna beg for money at least sound good... how many pennies? by the way AIDA = great show yay f-u-n :) nothing new with me besides the fact that im procrastinating on getting my college applications sent in whatever i dont really care anyway this way i can fulfill my lifelong dream of becoming a homeless beggar and singing offkey for money. ed? what do you think heh heh heh... well that about explains my life.linda is a dork a sexy dork at that. damn the man save the empire translates into damn the carwash give me some money for doing nothing. SHREK is an awesome movie if u havent seen it yet DO IT!!!! everyday and twice on sundays for that matter. oooooohhhhhooooo sorry thaT WAS IL DORKO Linda. i have a four day weekend because im going fishing on tuesday but clicker wants me to walk ot school with her so i have to get up early anyway damnit!!!!! clicker grrr...
weird egyptian belly dancers + John = obscene comments = getting hit.<Linda cuts in... hey egyptian belly dancers give good lap dances ouch! <- yea tell it to the OTHER lady next to you =)i think she slaps harder Linda. i think im going ot paint tonight im gonna call it white lines on a white piece of paper.. look its a polar bear stuck in a blizzard $$$$$$ im sure the metropolitan will buy it damn straight. Pineapple juice -> $3.75 cabs that drive you around to ANY art museum $11... museum passes $20 getting slapped by linda for obscene comments<priceless Big up to my hommies in the armor room.ive discovered what im actually gonna be wen i grow up... ill be one of those annoying people who go into corners of the museum and stay there all day writing poetry until they get kicked out but wait then i realizedi cant write so ill just go hang out with my medeival buddiesin the sword display which happens to be above the textile room which isnt actually open and just leads to a flight of stairs. haha i told like 5 people who asked where the train was going that we werent going ot their stop so i had more room to breathe b/ci was feeling alot like a cow.. without the cattle prod of course damn where is that thing when you need it... thats it for tonight... I QvIT!... night folks

wow

rety8@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Jul 2001 03:55:28 GMT

its the happiest best most blissful energetic greatest appealing intoxicating singularly most beautiful natural honest feeling in the entire world and its all what u do to me thank you

wow

rety8@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Jul 2001 03:39:36 GMT

its the purest happiest greatest most exciting natural intoxicating uplifting feeling i nthe entire world and it all has to do with you

wow

rety8@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Jul 2001 03:37:43 GMT

its the purest happiest greatest most exciting natural intoxicating uplifting feeling i nthe entire world and it all has to do with you

www.imawhore.com

rety8@hotmail.com — Wed, 27 Jun 2001 03:48:17 GMT

righhhttttt... i was soo bored today. i wasnt even aware it was possible to be as bored as i was w/o being dead...but alas im alive.. that is till kate visited at the car wash. my day got better at that point.. more good news i get my car on saturday of course itll be two or so weeks b4 i save up enough money for insurance registration and inspection but hey im working on it. im really tired gotta be at work for 7 talk to y'all tomorrow

im going back to sleep.....forever

rety8@hotmail.com — Tue, 26 Jun 2001 13:54:47 GMT

those were my first words for the day so id say it started out about right...aughhh im so tired but im not due into work till 12. the carwash is such an easy job and im by myself so its kinda like im my own boss..but not. but its sooooo boring and im so lonely there :). i think im going to the cemetary today ive been trying to avoid it but i think ishould go anyway watever. im trying ot think about what i did yesterday and i realize all i did was sleep work and then go back to sleep yea boredom! i finally have someone i reallyl ike and have the opportunity to go out with and i think im going to well i hope i am never can tell. anyway im outta here gtg to work

why do we always reach for the unattainable?

rety8@hotmail.com — Mon, 25 Jun 2001 04:59:23 GMT

im floating in my reminders of you
like a love drenched fool in an ocean of emotion
im going so far as to remember times we never had
things we never did
well we did them but only in my wishing and sleeping hours
and then im wondering if your wishing that too
because maybe if we both are then we can meet in the middle of a dream and things like week numbers and homes and rumors and stupid shit like that wont matter because your home can be in my arms and mine in yours
--miscellaneous thoughts from inner recesses of a crazed lovelorn idiot? yep you betcha.. im a dork i know but its all cool its a sunday and its been like 2 months since ive even opened up this page much less written in it. due to my recent alcoholic incident im grounded but whoever wants can come visit me one at a time :( i dunno watever by the way love.. yea its wierd thats it im gonna go ot bed now i mexhausted

a wall with a view

rety8@hotmail.com — Tue, 24 Apr 2001 00:25:51 GMT

nah i dont know wat that means anyway but make up your own mind about it hahaha anyway bob's in a very good mood today but alas he is a dog. not that thats en entirely bad thing.. for hussies anyway...clickers takin over this little doohickey thing coz johns not lol. im wearing tnoys jacket...yes indeed i believe i am, and ive got a hand up my jacket.....hmm?
now it's gone...
pellet now has an earing and he's a hot lookin mofo hamster!!!! yeah !!! go pellet.
im bored bored bored....?....blah blah blah yakkedy schmackety...differences were just explained to me... now i am clear on everything!!!! :-D anyway its back to primetime bob this is bob your host and now for a break from the ordinary nah how bout not only cuz there is no actual ordinary especially for me. enough of the ordinary unordinariness that should be a word if it isnt but i had a really good weekend and a great monday and am fantastic right nowi mean why not i also have magic pants but we wont discuss those b/c no discussion is necessary my weekend wouldve sucked had it belonged to anyone else but it didnt cuz its mine so u all suck and not me haha clickers got a headache....yup she does...aww poor baby. considering this is now clicker typing and she's patronizing herself, it's a very sad thing...john should be back in a minute or two, i dont eve kno where he went...i hear his voice, he's sumwheres in the kitchen...owie owie owie i need tylenol and bad!!!!!!!! damn retainors!!!! causing me pain pain pain in my head head head, the pain is so bad that it blocks out the little vioces that otherwise talk to me--sick of typing bye bye ok then clicker well ignore the voices hey now rrrrite. john listens to bubblegum music... actually clicker that was lisa loeb but nice try..im bored im also kinda tired but its all good anyway like i was saying b4 im in an excellent mood ill explain my weekend later rite now im leavin

french vanilla hazy cloud of love

rety8@hotmail.com — Mon, 23 Apr 2001 22:13:08 GMT

ok guys i used this statement as a derogatory statement in an tempered argument i had with someone i dearly love... but it sounds really kinda cool anyway

ow you make my head hurt

rety8@hotmail.com — Tue, 23 Jan 2001 20:48:20 GMT

Well Id say it was a good thing that noone reads this thing b/c i never write in it. It seems im a pretty lucky person today b/c i didnt have to take my math midterm b/c my teacher was absent which gives me a few more days to study or at least to pretend to study.
yep
Anyway i have a major headache right now and it might be that hammer i hit myself with but i suppose its all good. heh. Maybe. Other than my headache im doing really really good. School sucks but at least it doesnt suck so bad when yer trying to pass. Im pretending to be Mr. organized or watnot so i got a backpack and split my one huge binder into like three so im trying to get myself together here. I started working out a while ago and have been trying to get into a schedule and it seems to be working. Oh yea big and macho haha s'funny. Anyway im also really happy cuz im working on my relationships with other people some more than others of course. It would appear ive pissed off some people due to my stupid actions and if anyone who reads this (haha) is one of those people i apologize. Im workin on it damnit. Ive got issues. dont we all? well i tried writing a journal yesterday but i guess i didnt wait long enough for it to go through b4 i exitted b/c it didnt post n i was really upset.But my entire entry was about several things
1. why guys are assholes
2. why my weekend was so great
3.why i am an asshole
1. I hate people of my gender. We have so many anger management issues and troubles communicating with stuff like emotions. We get pissed off so easily and we have so many aggressive reflexes, hence wars.I really hate whoever it was who made me think that it was not ok for boys to show emotions like crying for example cuz the only thing that comes out of not doing that is anger. Its like fathers training their little boys to be miniature little hate machines. Now dont get me wrong im not saying boys need to like play dress up and play pretend with oven bake plastic chicken cutlets or watever im just saying if all of us were a little more caring there'd be so much less turbulence in this world. SO fuck whoever you are that told me i was a wuss if I cried.
2. my weekend. ahhhh.:) i had an excellent weekend and i didnt even do anything incredibly spectacular. actually yea i did. i was with Linda. i spent like the entire weekend with her and i love being with her. Friday night we watched a movie cuz it was all nasty out and i couldnt think of anything better to do. I really dont remember what movie it was mostly cuz i was watching linda more than the movie but its all good. Saturday we watched more tv in one day than i have in 5 months but it was yucky out and its ok
we woulda gone out but it was really icy and i got into one my goddamn stupid moods again. buti resloved it and linda slept over. Sunday i worked for like 4 or 5 hours after only getting like 5 hours of sleep so i was in a sleep deprived mood sunday that n i was worried cuz i had to do a speech on sudden changes for lifeteen. Now ordinarily i wouldnt have had a problem but i didnt feel like writing anything down and it was about a topic i generally dont like discussing with anyone much less a group of people. SO completely winging a speech along with trying really hard not to have an "emotional breakdown" was kinda fun. supposedly i got my point across so its all good. bad news on sunday was that ed n jill were there. i dont mean its bad that they were there i mean its bad cuz theyre always fighting. this time it was physical and ed made jilly cry. now im sure ed's a good guy or watever but jilly's my homefry or watever and i cant stand to see people upset much less people i care about. So i really hope everythings ok with them.
All in all lots of tears were shed on sunday as well as some of my own but it felt good to have it over with.
which brings me back to my guys are assholes theme. How can we completely hurt a girl and still be able to come back for more? I really hope im not like that. but i know i do stuff like that and it pisses me off b/c instead of following my heart and brain im following my penis its like manual overdrive and then the rage factor kicks in and its goodbye.
3. why im an asshole. I had a repressed childhood. I never really did too much and my emotions were always kinda kept in check i still have all this passive aggressive behavior geared towards my "mother" i guess but ive never shown it and now it starting to come out little by little and it scares me. im so trying to control it and i get really pissed at absolutely nothing and i annoy myself and hurt others. and im always the happy joker type b/c its so much easier to play that role than expose myself b/c people take advantage of that. ANyway im really glad i have people to talk to now and that i dont need my anger anymore b/c im not in an angry household and anger should not be used as a defense.
sorry
As of right now i love my life. I have an awesome g/f who i really love and thati shouldnt take for granted. I have really great friends who would do anything for me as i would do for them. And i have a family something ive been craving for a while so all in all its mad love for everyone. laterz people comment if ya care :)

rety8@hotmail.com — Tue, 23 Jan 2001 19:56:02 GMT

yea

merry fuckin christmas and im peachy fucking keen

rety8@hotmail.com — Sat, 23 Dec 2000 05:23:17 GMT

oh well shit happens i was supposed to hang out with linda tonite actuallt linda and a few friends actually it was probably only gonna be linda and tony but linda was hanging out with tabitha its all good i can deal with seeing her once a week and when seeing her her not talking to me its all good anyway i saw a few good friends today i went to the mall got my ear pierced again normally i woulda shoved the sucker thru myself but ronda wouldnt let me then i got the tips of my hair frosted as kind of an xmas present from mom that was cool i hung out a while and then came back here wherei went online and hung out for a few hours doing absolutely fucking nothing wow im so goddamn interesting at least i got my christmas shopping done andi only spent alot over 600 bucks yea! lucky us it snowed again today i love the cold weather where you can go outside and chip off your finger if you brush against a damn tree yea its great yea im fucking tired but at least tomorrow promises to be an interesting day im going ot the hamptons to spend our part of xmas with some of daves family ive known these people forever anyway so its normal anyway im gonna go now